Back, and Alive, But not Kicken.

We are back. And we are alive. And I feel half dead. hehehehe

Wednesday--Got up to 5 inches of snow on the ground and roads. Did 35mph with 4 wheel drive on for 50 miles. Was able to get up to 50mph for 70 miles. Dropped back down to 35 with 4 wheel on for another 68 miles or so. Then it was like "poof" no snow no ice no where. Made up some time the rest of the way. Got there in 9 hours. Got to dads, rested for a half hour or so. Immediately start packing up his trailer. Pack till about 6, then go eat. Felt like we were dying at about 8:30 was so tired. Tripped and fell down dad's steps, wrenched the back of left knee major bad. Drove all the way out to the guys place we were staying at, and he wasn't there. he was supposed to be there by 7. Waited around till 9. Yelled at Gigantor, "fuck it we are going to a motel, I'm dead ass tired" and went to leave. Guy showed up. Guy wanted to talk for another hour or so, and give tour of house. I Was rude, went and put kiddo to bed, and fell asleep on chair until Gigantor decided to come to bed. (we all slept in one room, me on the dinky bed, and Gigantor and Kiddo on the floor in sleeping bags).

Thursday--Woke up early, guy was gone to work. Took showers, went to dads. He had unpacked all that we packed. Said he was looking for something. Packed that back up. Went to breakfast. Went to bank, ins place, post office, Ace hardware, walmart, to wash suburban (all the mud from snow and ice roads), to grab lunch, back to dads. Ate, and started packing again. Friend of mine came over with son to chat for a few and say hi. Guy showed up, showed Gigantor what he had to do to unhook all utilities for the trailer (guy helped set it up). Took Guy out to dad's storage shed, went through lots of stuff. Decided it would all fit in suburban and tracker and trailer. Back to dads, more packing. Dad and Gigantor went to walmart for things forgot yesterday. Kiddo and me stayed, babied my sore knee. Boys back from walmart, bought bunji cords, started bunji ing cubbors shut that were packed up. Went to dinner, back to dads. Tore down table, made it and benches flush (travel trailer remember). Started stacking packed stuff neatly on top. 10:30 announce if we wait any longer I'll be to tired to drive those few miles out to guys place. Leave, get to guys, he's in bed. It's late. Get kiddo and ourselves in bed.

Friday--Get up drive to dads. Find all the stuff we packed on the table benches, in the living room, and bench storage opened and stuff scattered. Helped him find what he was looking for, re packed, put back together, moved boxes back. Found all cupboards un bunjied and gone through. Re packed and bunjied. Went to breakfast. Went back to dads. Loaded all 4 million cinder blockes he wanted to keep and transport up there. (my ass) Went to storage shed, went through everything. Loaded what he wanted to give to guy and trash up. Went out to guys, unloaded suburban, left him the 4 million cinder blocks to build a bbq pit he wanted too. Told dad, it would be cheaper to buy more cinder blocks then to haul the son of a bitches. Went back to storage shed, packed everything up in suburban. Went to dads. Loaded his tracker with 1/2 of storage shed stuff. Put a few things in front yard till in the morning. Dad and Gigantor went to get some lunch, while I iced me knee, and repacked the three cupboards dad unpacked just a few minutes before. Ate lunch. Went to visit the friend I had seen to see her house and other kid. Dad stayed, waited for propane guy to come take giant tank. Gone about an hour. Back to dads. Re packed cupboards for 5 thousandth time. Table and bench area big mess, dad went through everything again. Finally had had it. Yelled at dad to knock it off, nothing couldn't wait till when we got up here for one more day. Worked on defrosting fridge and freezer. Gigantor and dad back to walmart, for more stuff. Kiddo lugged in giant ice chest, and helped me bubble wrap dishes and pack in ice chest. Straightened bench seat/table area. Informed everyone when they got back, that it better be the last time I have to repack and bunjie the cupboards and straighten that area for hauling. Get suitcases out for him to pack some clothes for here. (he has to stay at my house for about a week or so till we get his trailer all hooked up, and utilities on). Went to dinner. Back and went through locked box we found in storage shed. Found grandma's coin and money collection that everyone thought was stolen. Found some canadian and us paper money dated from 1920 to 1933. Need to find out what that's worth. Found some confederate money. Found tons of coins. Mostly silver dollars. Most dating from 1881 to 1909. Decided to put box away and go back out to guys to get some sleep. Dad gets out his three lock boxes and starts going through them and reminiscing. Dad has door blocked off. Finally tell dad to let us out, so we can go to bed. Get out to guys at 11. Put Kiddo to bed. Visit for an hour or so. Go take showers, and get in bed about 1. Alarm goes off 4:30. Start packing all our stuff up. Leave guys at about 5:45. Get to dads, re pack some stuff. While I'm doing that, Gigantor starts unhooking utilities. Turn off sewer and water. I have to pee. Dad drives me to convenience store. After using potty and getting munchies for trip. Find out back of tracker is open. Gigantor was in it for tools, we drove up town with it open. Lost my pillows. Back to dads, Gigantor not finished yet. Broke crank on tongue of trailer. Have to use a screw driver and takes almost an hour to get that post thing up far enough to drive with it. Get everything locked up. Gigantor drives it for about 5 miles so I can get the feel of it. Pulls off. I drive it for the next 11 hours and 52 minutes. We pulled into my place at almost 9. Parked trailer on street, got pizza, ate, and went to bed. Got up today, and did a few things. Got the trailer unhooked, but not much else. I'm back in my arm brace, cuz fighting that trailer all day yesterday, hurt me. And I'm having a hard time with my knee. But all in all, it's all good.

Hope to catch up with you all soon.

Back on Saturday

I think we got everything ready to go except the suit cases. Then we are leaving early tomorrow morning, and we won't be home till Saturday.

I took the suburban in for a safety check yesterday. And they found a HUGE leak in the rear axle. I had to have that fixed and the rear brakes replaced, because the leak ruined them. So....that was about 350 bucks. ouch.

But anyway I hear, that there is going to be a big storm coming through in the next couple days. I hope it stays clear for us driving.

Just keep us all in your good wishes and prayers traveling.

I'll be back Saturday, and post soon with some of the many adventures. (yeah right, like my life is that exciting)

Have a good week, and weekend everyone!!!!

Countdown to Driving Hell

First of all....HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY ALL!!!!!

2nd...Kiddo is doing tons better. He went back to school on Thursday and today, now he has a week off for spring break. Little shit.

My tailbone is ready to pop out my ass, let me tell ya. I finally got an appointment with the chiro on Thursday, and he sure had to work for his money. He told me my lower back/tailbone and both hips were way out. And he worked my tail off (hehehe pun intended) And I was so sore, I could barely walk. Came home and put ice on it. But it didn't hurt as bad, just sore from all the work. Well...today has been like torture. And I know sometimes it feels a little worse before it gets better. So...I have another appointment on Monday. I sure as hell hope he fixes it before the big drive/move, cuz then I'll be in ass hell!!!!

We are headed to Captain Daddies on Wed (9 hours away) He was gonna have a friend haul his big ass travel trailer up here. And we were gonna hook up a small trailer and haul all his storage shed stuff up. And Gigantor was going to drive dad's little Tracker. I've hauled a very full horse trailer before, full of horses, and then furniture. Moving me then Alekx. So... the small trailer wouldn't bug me at all to haul. Well...Captain Daddy called tonight, and guess what??? The guy had surgery and can't haul the travel trailer. This is the same guy that would know how to unhook it from all the park hookups (he has it hooked up like a regular mobile home) and who would help us set it back up. So...what to do now, what to do. All we can think of, is.. I called and made an appointment to get the suburban checked out, full safety check for hauling. And for hauling heavy stuff. Got that set up for Monday. And now we are going down, gonna have to find someone to unhook everything. And I'm gonna hook that son of a bitch up to my massive big assed suburban. I got the 3/4 ton suburban so it should be fine. But....that means we have to leave the stuff in his storage shed for a couple or three months, till him and Gigantor can go back down and get it. And it also means that instead of hauling a nice small trailer, that I would be confident with. I have to haul a big assed 8 foot by 20 foot travel trailer. I can't drive daddy's tracker, it's so small, and with my knees and ankles and it's a stick, so it would cause so much pain. So...I'm stuck hauling the bitch. (no I don't mean me). And I'll probably be alone except for Kiddo, cuz Gigantor and Daddy will be in the Tracker. That makes me a little nervous too. Cuz if something goes wrong. 1..I don't want to kill the kid, and 2..I don't have anyone there to tell me what to do. I'll probably be fine, I'll just give myself an ulcer till we get home. hehehehe

We are gonna have such a busy weekend before we have to leave on Wednesday morning. What I hate most about that dam drive is how long it takes, and I have to drive through (not around but through) phoenix metropolitan area, and Tucson (remember I'm from a very small town, 5 whole stop lights) And on the way back, it's probably gonna take much longer than the 9 hours because of the hauling. But this weekend, we have to completely clean my house for Captain Daddy and his patches to stay here till we get his place hooked up. We have to clean the suburban out for the trip. We have to go up to mom's , and take down a fence, get her two outdoor water pipes capped off (leaks) and get the back mowed and her truck moved, so Daddies trailer can go in there. We have to do some shopping, I'm out of everything. We have to go get a couple tranqualizers from the vet for little Patches. We have to clean the pet carrier. We have to clean our own yard. And we have to set up the guy who is pet watching with instructions and keys.

Anyway, I gave myself a headache talking about all that. And my ass aches, so I'm gonna go.

OooO one last little tidbit of info. Warm diet pepsi with lime, burns as bad as real coke when it comes out of your nose. hehehehehe

Have a good weekend everyone!!!

What a Week

Man what a week I'm having. We all are having. Kiddo kept getting sicker and sicker over the weekend. We took him to the doctor on Monday. He has bronchitis and a respiratory infection. So...he stayed out of school Monday and Tuesday. I thought we would go back to school today. But he woke up really snuffly, and coughing pretty bad. So..I decided to keep him home one more day, and to get more antibiotics in him.

Last night was the weirdest night. I didn't sleep at all. I layed there and layed there, listening to my music, so I wouldn't hear the three dogs, one cat, and husband all snoring. Hubbies alarm went off at 4. I sat there wondering if I would get any sleep at all. So....I jumped his bones, sent him off with a good morning. In hopes I would tire myself out enough to get some sleep. I actually didn't fall asleep till almost 6:30 Then I woke up at 8. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

We have alot to do this weekend, to get all ready for Captian Daddy getting here next week. Wish us luck and good travels. hehehehe

I'm off to go sit on the couch and see if I can squeeze a nap out. hehehehe

Happy hump day all!!!

Movie review, and sickies.

Well, we went and saw Eight Below at the theater on Thursday night. What a great movie. Although it did make me cry three times. And with me being in this emotional flux. I didn't handle that to well. And the movie, or the depression I felt from the movie haunted me most the day Friday.

I went and got my nails done Friday, they ROCK!!! I did two colors, light green and bright green and both of them have really bright green glitter in them. I alternated the colors, so light green on my thumb,bright green on the first finger, etc....then did the opposite for the other hand. Then we found shamrock decals, and put dark green outlined in light green on the bright green nails. And light green outlined in dark green on the light green nails. It was so simple, yet they ROCK I tell ya.

Picked Kiddo up from school on Friday, and he wasn't feeling to well. Coughing and snuffling. By last night he was running a pretty good sized fever. Doped him up, and said we would take him to the doctor this morning. Got up, and his temp was 95.9. And he wasn't snuffly, but had a small cough. Decided to just give him some meds and leave it alone.

We went ahead and all went to see The Shaggy Dog. OMG what a good funny, and good movie!!! Did I say it was good??? hehehehe

Got out of the movie and Kiddo wasn't feeling to well again. He isn't running a fever, but his cough is much worse, and he's all stuffy again. Gave him more meds, and trying to make him rest. Gonna dope him up again at night. He's got codeine cough syrup.

OMG and what the hell is going on with the weather. It's been in it's 70's here for about 3 weeks. Then out of the blue this winter storm blew in. News was saying it was the worst one they had seen in years. Flagstaff was expected to get 3 to 4 feet of snow in one night. And up here, where it hardly ever snows. It snowed all night last night, we woke up to 3 inches on the ground and it snowed most the day today. Never got out of it's 30's. The sky cleared up for a few hours, melted all the snow off. Now it's all cloudy and very very cold again. Bet it snows again tonight.

Well...that's all I've got for now. Hope you all are having a great weekend!!!

I'm Blind AHHHHHHHHHH

Not really, but I can't see right now so does that count??? My fucking left eye. grrrrrrrr On Sunday it was burning a little. On Monday I got an eyelash in it, and it burned all day. So bad, that I made Gigantor go get me some eye drops at about 10 that night. Those soothed it. Well...Tuesday was better, and Wednesday my eye was fine. Today, it's burning so bad, I can't fricken see out of it. Everything is fuzzy out of it. I don't know what the hell is going on with it, but it's pissing me the hell off.

I'm gonna take Kiddo and his friend Big J to the movies tonight. We are gonna watch Eight Below. It looks cute. I'm taking Gigantor too. But I don't thing it counts, cuz I think he will probably sleep through it. He is so solar powered it's not even funny. It's irritating is what it is. So...not only will it be night, but it will be in a dark theater. I'm gonna have to sit there the entire movie and elbow him for snoring. I hate spending money to take someone to the theater to sleep. I guess I shouldn't bitch to much though, cuz last movie we all went too. Both Gigantor and I fell asleep. It was Hoodwinked. I couldn't keep my flippen eyes open, and that's not usually like me.

Let me confess something to you all. If I don't get sex from my husband soon, I'm gonna STAB him in the eye with a pencil. I'm one frustrated mama let me tell ya. Stupid ass man keeps saying he's to tired, even when I work my ass off and get him in bed by fricken 9. He keeps saying that, then we he tries to get frisky it's always that time of the month for me. The son of a goat!!!!! But I am getting pissed off. Cuz since my mom died (jan 17th) He's put out twice!!! YEP THAT'S ONLY TWO TIMES, AND THAT'S DAM NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!

Okay done with my rant. I'm gonna go spank the dogs and kick the kids. Happy Thursday everyone!!!

Note to self, don't forget to record survivor, csi and without a trace. hehehehehe

No Coherent Thought

I just have randomness again. hehehehe

The boys did excellent on their hunter safety course. Kiddo was actually a year to young, so he only gets a certificate of completion instead of a diploma. I really thought he wasn't gonna pass this year. But that was okay. hehehe But after Saturdays field day. I knew kiddo has found his niche. He took the hike and was very safe with his fire arm. He then went and shot a 243, a 50 cal black powder rifle. And then shot at clays with a 12 gauge, and 20 gauge and a 410. He shot two out of 3 clays with the 410. He's still a little small for the 12 and 20 gauge. He then went and shot a bow for the very first time, and was less than 1/2 inch from the bullseye with his first shot. Then they had there written test last night. Kiddo got an 88% whooooohoooooo Gigantor got 100%. I'm so proud *insert huge teethy mom grin here*

Okay here is where I sound heartless. My dog is pissing me the hell off. I'm so irritated with him. I know he is way way old, and on his last legs. But dammit, stop stinking, stop licking, stop limping, stop acting weird, and just chill the flip out. I know he can't, but had to get that out. Poor baby, having urinary problems a little, and no matter how much we wash or change his diet, he just stinks, and bad. I now need to clean my carpets, cuz the stink is in the house. And he licks his fricken foot like 24/7 I've had him checked at the vet multiple times. Nothing wrong with is foot, no other pain, that is manifesting with his licking, and nothing wrong with his tongue, he just licks. I constantly have a wet spot on the floor from his licking. I kick him out, when he keeps it up to much. Which isn't a bad thing. Cuz I think spring is here. We have been well up into our high 60's. Even wearing t-shirts with no coats now. And having to leave the door open a good part of the day.

This weekend we are going to have to trim the trees, at our place and at mom's. We also have to get mom's yard ready to put dad's travel trailer up on it. Looks like we have almost every thing else arranged for him moving up. We have time off, and a place to stay. I just need to find someone to run the sewer line for his little trailer.

Did you all know that if you choke on a hot tamale candy and it gets stuck in your sinus cavity, that it burns all fricken day??? ouch. hehehehe

Okay I've ran out of anything to say. I was gonna say anything of interest to say. But then I realized all I said probably wasn't interesting anyway. hehehehe

Have a good Tuesday everyone!!!

Information

Hi there. hehehehe For any of you who might want to know. I was talking with my friend Kerry last night (who has also lost her mom), and we were talking about the many emotions and feelings one goes through. We came up with this idea (I won't say good idea yet or not) of starting a blog where people who have lost their mothers can go and vent, rage, yell, cry, and get comfort. I know I am going through tons of emotions, and not sure how to deal with them all. I know I need some counseling too. Possibly from my preacher. But...I'm also a person that NEEDS to show outer strength. But...I'm afraid in this instance, that if I keep it all bottled in. I may end up in the hospital.

So...any whoooo back on track. We decided to start a blog, where we could go write, and rant.

I just wanted to let you all know in case you want to drop by. Or if any of you have lost your mothers and would like to come and be part of it. Please let me or Kerry know and we will send you an invite. I will be sending you one Alekx, as soon as I know what e-mail you want it too. hehehehe

Okay so here is the link for anyone that wishes to see. Motherless Daughters

Have a good Friday everyone!!!

One of Those Days

Ever had one of those days??? I was watching a commercial where the person woke up and was walking by a bulletin board and there was a smiley face on it. She grabs the smiley face and throws it in the trash. That's what kind of day I'm having.

I woke up with a major urge to kick the dog, push the kindergartners down, and throw the cat in the gerbil cage, all for shits and giggles. But alas...I did none of those. I did do a couple ornery things, but they were minor compared to what I wanted to do. hehehehe

I put scotch tape on the cats paws. I turned all the dogs ears inside out. And I made sure when I sneezed I did it by the gerbil cage so they would all jump.

I do have to go back to the school and pick the kiddo up. But...I better keep myself tucked inside the suburban. Or I might make some small children and parents cry, and I would laugh so evilly about it. muahhhhaaaahhhaaaahhaaaa

I'm thinking of going and grinding up some crackers and putting them in Gigantors side of the bed. But he sleeps so hard, I bet he wouldn't notice. So..that would just deflate me and ruin all the ornery fun I'm having today.

Well...I have to get going. Go check the mail. I may flick a booger on someone while I'm at the post office. hehehehe

Have a good/or not Monday everyone!!!

Big News

Well we have big news.

I may have told you all that I had been pressuring my daddy to move up here closer to us. I've been pressuring him for the past 3 or 4 years. We wanted him to move, because he no longer had any family where he was, and as sad as it is, most of his friends had passed away. Also my father is now 65, and not in great health. Diabetic, and extremely high blood pressure. And I think his doctors are quacks, and don't have him on the proper medications. He won't monitor his blood pressure or blood sugar. And whenever he gets ticked, upset, or depressed, he eats the wrong way. I worry about my daddy. And he needs to be a much bigger part of Kiddo's life. That's the only Grand Kiddo he's getting.

So....last weekend he calls me and tells me how horrible things are going at work. How high his blood pressure is. How he might end up in the hospital. I said "don't make me put my foot down and come get you. Cuz I will while you are kicking and screaming. Because we need to take care of you and your health, I can't deal with another funeral right now" And daddy said "Well...I'm thinking about putting in my resignation soon" So..I say "good" Thinking that in the next month or two he will make up his mind, then put the letter in, and give at least 3 weeks to a month notice, cuz that's just how daddy is. In that time, I can get some money saved up to go get him and all his stuff, and his trailer (he lives in a 24 foot travel trailer) And we can have everything arranged. But...it didn't quite happen that way. hehehee

Daddy calls me on Wednesday. Says "Kitten---I put my resignation in today" Here is where you pick me up off the floor cuz I fell out of my chair. I mean this is what we always wanted, but a little notice folks. hehehehe So...I say "oh good, so when do we need to come down" He says his last day is March 17th. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh Spring break is the next week. So...we will be headed down the 22nd probably (Wednesday) and hopefully be able to head home on that Saturday so that Kiddo can get a day of rest before going back to school. It's a good 9 hour drive without hauling stuff.

Now daddy is going to have to stay here for a while, until we can find a place/lot to put his trailer, and get it all hooked up. That may take a few weeks. And daddy needs to find a part time/or full time job. He says he still wants to work some. So..maybe the new super walmart. hehehehe people greeter.

Now we are going to have to ask Gigantors boss, for yet again, another loan. Because I drained my dam savings paying for mom's funeral. And, we hadn't been able to replenish it enough. I have on credit card that has no room on it. So...we are going to have to get that loan just to have money for gas, and food for the quick trip. Alekx has a friend that will probably let us stay in his spare room while we are there, so I won't have to pay for a motel. Thank the gods!! hehehehe

Okay...well, I had a really bad day today. I was doing fine, and the boys went out bunny blasting and coyote hunting. Then I ate peanut butter till I felt sick, then went in the back/master bathroom and cried for an hour. I do cry every day still, but only for seconds or a minute or two. But...today was alot. Hit me hard. So...now I'm out here enjoying a wine cooler, blogging, watching the Ozzy Osbourn special on A and E. hehehehee

I'm gonna go get toastie, and watch a couple movies. Have a good weekend everyone.

More Randomness

There is that randomness word again. hehehehee

Boy did we get up late today. Usually me and kiddo get up by 6:45, rush and get dressed, get him fed, do a couple chores, and are out the door by 7:40 at the latest to get him to school in time. We don't like mornings, so we do as little as possible in the morning, so we can sleep as late as possible. hehehehehe So...this morning I just kept hitting the snooze. Kiddo came in realized I was still in bed and crawled in next to me, while I kept hitting the snooze button. I finally decided to open my eyes with the next snooze press, and realized it was fricken 7:20. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh Boy we jumped up. I said okay lets hurry, but not kill ourselves. I'll write you a flippen note for being late if it comes down to that. We get dressed, he washes his face (suffering from acne at 9 flippen years old). We do our couple chores, then I have him grab poptarts and a drink. And guess what?? We left the house at 7:42. hehehehe I thought, okay, if I go 2 miles over the speed limit the whole way, we will make it fine. So we head up the hill to the top of the plateau. We have to drive to the other end of town for his school. Hit the first school zone that is at the top of the hill. And hit a long ass line of cars that's backed up about 2 city blocks. And realized. FUCK there was an accident at the light. grrrrrrrrrrrrr So...takes us about 10 minutes to get through the light. Everyone having to slow down and gawk at the flippin fender bender. Sheesh, knock it off asshats!!! Just fricken drive!!! I'm amazed there wasn't a couple more accidents right in front off all the police there for the first. Cuz everyone was driving like fucktards!!! But I made it. Pulled into the school to drop Kiddo off at 7:58. hehehehehehe

I love living in a small town. I guess our high school boys basketball team is going to play in the state championships on Friday. So...we all get a notice from the school yesterday. That school is going to be dismissed at 11:30 tomorrow. That way everyone that wants to travel to the championships can. hehehehe

I guess on Saturday...Gigantor and Kiddo are gonna go out in the boonies and go coyote hunting and do some bunny blasting. Hope they have fun blowing up the countryside. hehehehe

Oh I would like to thank Miranda for the visual of exploding hamsters. hehehehe Her comment in my last post made me scared that my gerbils are gonna go POP then I'm gonna have to get therapy for Kiddo for the next 20 years. hehehehe

Oh man....Last October I ordered address labels. Cuz I'm just to dam lazy to write my return address on all my mail. hehehehe I get them from this neat place, charges like 5 bucks for a set.. And there are a ton in a set, can't remember how many right now. But it's alot. Well, I had gotten some with flowers on them, and then some of the rudolf cartoon. For around Dec, and to put on Christmas cards. So I use about half of my rudolf labels, and thought I would save the rest for next year. And I was excited to start my flowers. When low and behold....every fricken place started sending me those free address labels. So...we now have 6 sheets of wildlife from the rocky mountain elk foundation, 2 sheets of wildlife from north american hunting club, 2 sheets from the V.F.W., 6 sheets of holiday one's from the disabled veterans, 2 sheets of baby animal ones from Ranger Rick, a booklet of flower one's from a book service. And now I have so many flippin labels, and keep getting more every couple months. I have no idea if I can use them all. hehehehehe

Okay I'm gonna go read your blogs, and see how snarky you all are today.

much huggggsssss

Monday Randomness

Is Randomness a word??? If not, it is now, cuz I just used it. hehehehe

I tried to write a post every day since my last post...and I sat and stared at this screen. I had nothing. Nothing of any interest. God I'm boring. *sigh*

I hate getting up early after having extra days off. Hell I hate getting up early any day. hehehe

All three days of the weekend. Kiddo fought me about putting any clothes on. I swear to God if he could get away with it, he would wear only his underwear at all times. The child is gonna grow up and own a nudist colony or something.

Have you ever insisted on something, and everyone keeps telling you your imagining things?? So...you start thinking maybe your just bonkers??? Well...I kept telling everyone that two of the gerbils were getting majorly fat. Not just chubby, but like the Violet girl who turned into a blueberry on Willie Wonka fat!! And everyone kept telling me it was just that they were fluffy. I swear they have double chins. So....fat. So then I started doubting what I was seeing, and thinking maybe I had cracked. Gigantor was cleaning the gerbil cage this weekend, and he took the gerbils out to put them in a box. He walks in and goes, "hey honey?? Did you know that two of those gerbils are so fat they have a moon orbiting them??" Says it like it's some new discovery or something. I was so irritated that nobody believed me for the past couple weeks, and made me feel insane, then they decide it's something new they never heard of. These boys are gonna drive me to drink, I kid you not. hehehehee

Gigantors a major ASS!!!! Can we just clear that up now?? hehehe Sunday we decide to go out and play on the 4 wheeler. Good idea since we have owned it since September, and I still had never been on it. Hey I had never been on any 4 wheeler in my life. So...about flippin time. So...We go way out in the boonies. And Gigantor takes his little turn to show off. Standing up, and spinning circles going really fast, and he's doing that cheesey guy laugh, when they think they are so cute, and macho for showing off, when really they are ASSES!!!!!!! So..he has me get on behind him, and take me for a ride before he teaches me how to run the dam thing. I climb on, and my flipping feet don't even touch the running board (yes I'm short) I'm holding on to the metal rack in the back. And when he starts doing his shit,the ASS, (no he did not go slow like I asked) I realized that the elbow I hurt over the summer still didn't have enough strength to keep me from getting bucked off that son of a bitch. So...as I'm getting pitched from seat to metal rack and back, and not being able to hold on very well. I decide to stop the shit. I wrap my arms around Gigantor , I mean the ASS, and grab on. Yes I grab on to his pectorals, grabbing skin and hair in my nails. And I holler, above the screaming like a girls sounds he was making, that he better pull the f**k over and let me learn how to drive. The ASS pulled over and was teaching me the basics, then he climbed on behind me. Of course I didn't go near as fast as he did, and his feet could touch. But why he had to keep head butting me with his helmet I will never know. I then went and got Kiddo and took him for a little ride. He didn't want to go very fast, and well...I am gonna be one of those mom's that just putters around on her 4 wheeler. No hurries, not stunts, no wheelies, no crashing and breaking my leg. heheheheheh Hey did I mention that Gigantor was a big Giant ASS???

Yesterday I had the day off, and should have been up doing a million things. Know what I did yesterday. I worked a little on the blanket I'm crocheting, and napped on and off on the couch. That's about all I did all dam day. I got up that evening and paid bills and did some stuff. But...Dam I was lazy. hehehehe

Now today...I need to go mail some packages, and deliver my avon books. And what am I doing. I'm fucking off writing in my blog, drinking coffee. hehehehe

Okay I'm gonna go read what amazing words you all had to type today.

Happy Tuesday everyone!!!!

The Gods of Wind

Okay what the hell??? Where the hell did this wind come from??? I heard on the news last night we were supposed to get wind today. 40mph all day and 60mph gusts. And we all thought, yeah right. Cuz the weather guy never has it right. Woke up this morning, and this tumble weed the size of my suburban was blocking out gate. I have no idea where it came from. So...Kiddo and I had to wrestle that away to get out of our gate. Then the wind is blowing so hard that trash cans aren't just rolling down the street (and we have those big blue cans) they are being hurtled like projectiles. I had one slam into the house, and I thought a care had hit the house. On my drive home from dropping kiddo off at school. I seen 3 blown over fences. 1 blown over shed, and about a million roof shingles and boat tarp coverings blowing around. We also have the worst sand here. We have sand, not dirt. And it's not fine, beach like, sand. It's like big sugar granules sand. And it will blast you so hard, that it can draw blood. And my poor baby Gigantor has to work outside in it all.

Oh my gosh, I almost got my ass knocked out by a "candy grenade" this morning.
Today is late start, which means the kids don't have to be to school till 9:30 in the morning, instead of 8. So...I'm in sitting on the side of the bed, watching the news, with my back to the door. And...WHAP!!!! something slams into the back of my head and neck, and stung, and made me see stars. I scream "WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT" And Kiddo is trying so hard not to giggle and he's saying "I'm so sorry mom, I'm so sorry" (he now says mom instead of mommy whaaaaaaaaa) And I scream "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT AND WHAT WERE YOU THINKING" He slinks in the room still fighting the giggles, they are coming out with little snorts and honks, but he's doing a pretty good job of seeming sympathetic. He crawls up behind me, and grabs the ammo. It was a roll of those little candies called "smarties" (well yeah they smart) And he goes, "where did the other one go?" I'm like "why the hell did you throw two of those at the back of my head?" He goes, "I was trying to toss them on the bed *honk* *snort*" I'm like, "TOSS??? you hurled those bad boys like you were throwing hand grenades over enemy lines!!!!" *SNORT* *HONK* He's shaking now trying to hold back the laughter. He goes, "mom (insert, are you stupid look here) they weren't grenades, they were sticks of dynamite!!!" I'm like "*snort* well that shit hurt." He goes "sorry, but HEY I killed the enemy!!!!" He walkes out snorting and honking, and now after the pain has worn off...I can't help but laugh about it. Who knows when we will ever find the other pack of those candies. After bouncing off of my think mellon they hurled themselves into the depth of my bedroom somewhere.

Hope you all had a happy valentines yesterday. And happy Windy Wednesday to you all!!!!

The Eagle

I'm so sorry I haven't posted more often. I'm dealing with alot of shit in my own head. But I did promise to post about the eagle, like Alekx wanted me too.

Let me lead you up to this.

Over 12 years ago, when I had my wedding (a had already been married for 6 months, by a J.P. but we wanted a religious wedding) Alekx and I wanted to do something nice for our mom. She had made lots of sacrifices through her life for us. To say she had not had an easy life was a major understatement. But she didn't complain. So....I got a friend to sing a song to her, dedicated from me and Alekx. We sat her down and sat in front of her. And the friend sang Eagle When She Flies, by Dolly Parton. For those of you who don't know this song. It basically says, that there is a woman who has gone through many trials in life. And the chorus says.

She's a sparrow when she's broken, but she's an eagle when she flies...

We thought this song described mom very well. So...that's why we had it sang to her, and she cried and cried.

Now fast forward.

When mom passed away, and I was sitting picking out music for her memorial. The first song I thought of was that one. Yes it told wonderful tails about the woman that she was. And now instead of saying she's and eagle when she flies about her strength it would mean now she's an eagle, soaring up above. We just thought it would fit so perfectly. And it had alot of meaning to all three of us. Alekx, myself and mom.

Now it was Alekx and my turn to cry and cry when that song was played.

That Sunday we drove up to a beautiful spot about 3 hours away called Oak Creek/Sedona area to scatter mom's ashes. She had many a fond memory there as a child. Alekx, house elf, myself, Gigantor, and Kiddo all gathered around with almost 20 other friends and family, that came along. And Alekx and I threw her in the creek, yelling "GOODBYE MOMMY, WE LOVE YOU" We were all cheering, it was a wonderful place she was in now. Then it all got quiet. As we all sat and thought. My uncle and his wife went off to sit and meditate and take in the scenery. My mother in law plopped down with Kiddo on the rocks and they took of their shoes and dangled their feet in the creek, just very quiet and just being with each other. Two of her friends walked off and just stared at the beautiful red, cathedral shaped, cliffs surrounding the area (as me uncle said, we should all be so lucky to have such a wonderful headstone) I sat and hugged another aunt and uncle just very quietly. Alekx and the house elf, stood and held hands and cried. Gigantor and a cousin and the cousins daughter were splashing from rock to rock across the creek to get pictures. When all of a sudden cousins daughter, started screaming "BURFICA!!!! LOOK!!!!" and she was pointing. Out of nowhere, I mean nowhere a BALD EAGLE came flying up the creek, just a few feet over the water. It got to where all of us where, and it started circling. It circled the area right above all of us, and slowly started going up in the sky. It's entire time circling and moving upward took about 15 minutes or so. Then when you could still see it plain as day, still a pretty big eagle, it POOFED. Not flew away, not flew up, just disappeared into thin air. Everyone that watched it saw the same exact thing. We all instantly were convinced that it was mom. She was the one soaring. And weather she was saying goodbye, or I'm watching you, or I love you. Either way, it was so very spiritual, and so very special to get that amazing gift. We all are very convinced it was mom. The symbolism is so amazing.

So anyhow, that is the just of the eagle story.

I'll try to post better. Just having alot of my own struggles right now.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!!!!

Happy Giants Birthday

Friday was Gigantor's birthday. He told me not to do anything for him, because of all the stuff we had to do past couple weeks. So...I planned a surprise thing on Saturday at my aunt and uncles. But on Friday, I bought him a cheesecake sampler, and took him and a friend to dinner. (we had a gift certificate there) I told him I didn't have a chance to get any presents, or money after all the stuff with mom's funeral and things. And that I might be able to get him something for Valentines. In the mean time I had two cakes sitting over at my aunt and uncles. And a box full of gifts waiting to be hidden in the suburban.

On Saturday I sent him to the store for milk, and Kiddo and I scrambled to get everything hidden in the suburban. Then when he got home we took Kiddo and a friend to the movie--Hoodwinked. It was good, but we must have been exhausted, cuz me and Gigantor both fell asleep for about the last half hour. hehehehe

I told him some story about having to take some paperwork concerning mom over to my uncles. And we walked in to balloons and banners. It was great. Then we had bbq Elk Burgers. yummie yumm yumm yumm We had a few friends show up. Then we did presents and cake. And the guys all played Texas Hold Em Poker, and us girls went in the living room and visited. I yawned and wondered what time it was, and then realized it was about 11:30 ahhhhhhhhhh LOL

Today we went to church and then went and dropped off our tax stuff. Also watched the rigged super bowl. Don't get me started. I wasn't for either team. I'm not that big into football. I like to watch super bowl for the commercials. But it was obvious to even me that the officials were paid off. Anywhooo....my opinion, nobody needs to yell at me about it. And in the mood I'm in, if you do. I'll retaliate in a very not nice way. hehehehehe

Well....Alekx wanted me all to tell you the eagle story, so I will try to post that this week. Have a good week everyone.

Quick Note

Just a quick note to let you all know we are still alive and kicking. This past weekend went really well. It was beautiful!!!! The memorial was so beautiful, and we had lots of laughs and lots of tears. We had all sorts of family there, and alot of people from town. The Church holds about 180 people and it was over half full. About 2/3's full. It was so nice to see all those who remembered mom fondly. Sunday went wonderfully too. We found an amazingly beautiful place to scatter mom. Hopefully Alekx will share the picture of the place with you all.

Alekx and the house elf left on Tuesday afternoon. So...yesterday was Gigantor's first day back at work and Kiddo's first day back at school. And me...well...I cried alot yesterday. Some of it hit me. I miss my mom, and I'm not looking forward to the coming year without her to talk to and council me.

Friday is Gigantor's birthday. I hadn't even thought about it with everything going on. He told me not to worry about it since we spent so much money over the past couple weeks. Of course I can't just forget about it. So...I told him maybe later in the month, and in reality, I'm planning something for Saturday. hehehehe I will take his friend D and Kiddo to walmart tomorrow and we will pick out a gift. Then my aunt and uncle said we could come over and have a bbq (elk steaks) on Saturday. So...I'm not gonna tell Gigantor. I'm just gonna tell him that I have to go sign some paperwork concerning mom, and we go up there, and SURPRISE!!!! Hopefully. hehehehe

Anyhow, I still have lots of thank you notes to make. So...I'm gonna go check blogs while I eat breakfast, then I'm off.

Happy Thursday everyone!!!

Dropping by

Just dropping by, to let you all know we are doing okay. Been so busy, haven't had alot of time to grieve yet. It's coming, I can feel it. :) I've been so very busy this past week. I'll give you all a little break down.

We are having mom's services on Saturday. Alekx and the house elf are flying in with her little box. hehehehe My mom lived in this town for about 30 years. So...everyone I meet that knew here, have asked to come to the services. I've said yes of course. Then all of my friends, and relatives. If everyone comes that says they are coming, we are going to have way over 100 people there. I'm thinking maybe half of who said they would come will be there.

My best friend Roo (we stayed at her house when my mom was flown out last year) came up last Friday, she brought a bunch of craft supplies I needed and helped me literally work my ass off getting everything ready. So...here is a little break down of goings on since last week.

Fought with the 4 wheeler dealership about the bill, got that straightened out.
Fought with the furniture company about the bill, got that straitened out as well.
Suburban broke down--got it fixed---$116 bucks (ahhhhhhhhh)
Took kiddo to doctor today he's way sick (180 bucks worth of medications)
Now for the memorial planning.
Called relatives
Called pastor
Went to newspaper,and radio station
Searched 5 places in town for the guest/visitor book (nobody had one)
Searched 3 for a printer for the little paper obituaries (announcements I guess)
Got pictures to my uncle to scan, blow up and print
Bought material for a purple shirt for me, and purple ties for the guys. (everyone is wearing something purple)
Bought little purple flowers for pins for guests.
Bought poster boards for memory boards.
Went to seamstress
Man who said he could do the announcements wanted 200 bucks for black ink on copy paper, wasn't sure I had much of a choice.
Went to uncles to get pictures, whined about printer guy, stayed 2 hours looking at uncles computer, and him and I made the announcements. Saved to disk.
This was all on Wednesday, she passed on Tuesday.
Thursday, called a friend, set her up to calling people for the luncheon after the service. (need people to bring food)
Dropped obituary off at newspaper.
Went by furniture shop, bed frame broke (the new one)
Went and ordered the big thing of flowers for the front table ($75)
Friday I vegged till my friend got in at 6 in the evening. She drove all over looking for the visitors book, finally went by a funeral home, and picked up a wonderful one, that is by Thomas Kincaid, has a cross on a hill at sunset. Made me cry. Also made me cry when she said she felt mom's presence so strong in my house. I think she's hanging out with me, making sure we are all okay.
That night, went through two suit cases of pictures for the memory board. There were 4 of us going through them. Roo found the only three surviving pictures of my parents wedding. Made me cry again.
Saturday, did some grocery shopping, some cleaning, then worked on the poster boards. I punched holes around the outside and wrapped purple fun fur on them.
Sunday, got up went to walmart, for dress shirts for the boys. Did some more grocery shopping, picked up my shirt and the ties. Came home and D helped me outline some butterflies on my shirt in gold fabric paint (D is Gigantors best friend member??) He helped me place photo's on the boards and get them taped in.
Bought some baskets for things for the service.
Monday, took Kiddo to school. Finshed my shirt (had to let the one side dry) started decorating a basket, put writing pins and pieces of paper in one for people to write down a memory or blessing and give to the family. Wrapped fun fur around the handle of another (took two days) embellished with flowers.
Bought paper, so uncle could print out the announcements. Nice card stock, cream color paper. Got the announcements.
Painted 4 picture frames.
Went to the christian book store and got two things that I won't say, cuz they are a surprise for Alekx.
Figured out how we wanted to embellish the little purple flowers for pins.
After dinner, proceeded to make 75 pins, OMGGGGGGGGGG I was up till 1 in the morning.
Kiddo woke up real sick so kept him home today. I got up and fastened the safety pins on all the flowers, and made some bows out of ribbons and put safety pins on them. Finished decorating the baskets, then folded the 125 announcements.
Met with the pastor and got the service all arranged.
Called uncle asked him to do eulogy.
Took Kiddo to doctor
Turned in prescriptions
Went by restaurant, and reserved it for 20 people on Friday night
Went and got suburban, now we are gonna eat and then go get the medicine.

I still have to check in on the lady about the food, and maybe buy some drinks. I have to majorly clean my house for all the company, and I have zero energy. Wish friend would come help with that. hehehehe I have to put the pictures in the frames when they dry. And fill out the front of the guest book. Then have to get the sanctuary ready on Friday. And get with our uncle cuz he would only do the eulogy if we got with him, and he made it from me and Alekx.

I'm so gonna need a vacation and sleep after all this. hehehehee

Anyhow I rambled, and I just wanted to check in. I hope you all are doing well, and I'll be back soon, and checking in regularly. Probably middle of next week. Thank you all my wonderful blogger family. I adore you all!!!

Fly Free

May you fly with the angels now mom, ride all the horses your heart desires, run with the dogs, and fish with you mom and dad!!! May you be able to wear PURPLE everything every single day!!! May you run through fields full of vibrant and strange colors (mostly purple)!!! May you welcome us with open arms when it's our time to be called home!! Watch over us and kick us in the butt when we need it!! Know you are so much loved, and will be greatly missed. May you always have a smile on your face, and peace now in your heart and soul!!

Fly Free and Happy my beautiful spirited mother!!!

Rest in Peace mom

July 4, 1945---January 17, 2006

Tuesday is Monday

I had this witty, snarky post all thought out to do today. But...I received a phone call from Alekx last night. They took mom to the e.r. again. I had talked to mom the day before, and she was sick, and didn't sound well. Sounded like she could barely breath. I guess it got worse, and they took her in. Alekx had to go to work. She's training in a police dept job. Plus what good is she gonna do, but sit and stare at mom's medicated ass.

Anywhoo...I called the hospital this morning. She is in a e.r. room. Waiting for a bed upstairs. They are admitting her. The e.r. nurse told me it doesn't look good. Mom doesn't want intibated, and she is very out of it right now. But she is struggling to breath, and it's starting to take a toll on her heart. I asked if she was gonna get a bed today. And the e.r. nurse said, "yes hun, but realistically we have to look at if she is even gonna make it till then"

I can't call Alekx to get a more updated idea of what the hell is going on. She will be off at 3, then go see mom. The nurse took down my numbers, in case they had to call me if "something" happened. So...I'm trying to remain calm till I talk to Alekx, but let me tell ya, them butterflies in my tummy are working over time.

Please keep us all in your thoughts and prayers.

Much love to you all!!! And hug your loved one's today for me please, hug them tight.

Friday the 13th

Realizing it's Friday the 13th today, I'm not even gonna try for a normal day. That would be like trying to swim up a water fall. hehehehe

Took the doggies to the vet last night--yes now I owe more money. Buster doggie got his stitches taken out. They were very impressed with his progress. And Buck doggers got his allergy shot, and some bumps checked out. I was worried about cancer. The vet said it wasn't obvious cancer, and with his age, do we really wanna run a bunch of tests, to which I stated NOOOOOOOOOO. So...we are just gonna watch them and keep documenting the new one's that sprout up. If he gets in pain we will address that with pain meds, but basically. Keep him comfortable for however much longer he has. This dog has lived longer than I thought he would. So...who knows.

Is it wrong that Kiddo has picked up the nick names we call the dogs?? I mean I understand him picking up us calling Buck--Roadblock. Or us calling Buster--Mama Dog (he's a boy) But, Kiddo comes in yesterday, and goes. "So...does shit head have an appointment too?" unfortunately that's what Gigantor and I call Dribbles most often. hehehehe I couldn't get real mad at Kiddo, cuz we do it all the time. But I did do the shocked yell of KIDDOOOOO, and laughed. And he all shocked was like, "oh no I'm sorry" in his innocent little voice. hehehehehe

Is it a bad thing that one of the goldfish is swimming in circles on his side, near the top of the tank??? hehehehe I swear those two fish are gonna outlive us all. I must have got the Koi kind or something. They are about 4 years old. I'm ready for them to float belly up so I can flush them.

I have construction going on behind my house. We have this chain link fence that encloses the area we live. We live on the back side, so the fence is behind us. For over a year, just a ways away, they have been building a "low income" (yeah right 140 thousand) housing development. I think it's ugly, all the houses are the same, and they have 3 feet of back yard before the brick walls, that enclose them. So....since the fall they have been digging this ditch along behind us, to build a canal they said, then they were gonna put up another brick wall, and start building some houses right behind us. ugggghhhhhh Their fence is going up about 4 feet from our fence. So...I have had all these workers hanging out at the back of the house, leaning up on the fence, b.s.ing alot. So...As Buster healed more, he's gotten more agitated at people being near his yard. So....when they get loud at 6 in the dam morning. I'm ornery, and I let the dogs outside. Which they run up silently to the back, then start barking like the dickens when they are about 2 inches from the workers. hehehehehe I hear "OH SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! THAT SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!!!!!!!!" Thankfully they are pretty good guys, or that Gigantor really scared them, when he talked to them (cuz he's a giant) cuz they have never been mean to, or teased the dogs. I'm waiting for my cat to stroll over and be the total shit that he is, and end up getting his dumb butt sealed in the brick wall. hehehehehe Only nice thing about that brick wall and housing, is it should make a good wind break. If any of you all have been to Arizona, you know what I mean by the wind. hehehehe

Well I'm gonna go finish eating my fat free peanut butter on wheat toast, and drinking my sugar free hot cocoa, which is only luke warm. hehehee

Have a happy Friday the 13th everyone!!!!