Okay here is the vent/rant

You all don't have to read this, it is more for me to feel better, so be warned.

As I said I was going to be deleting someone off, and I did.

Let me give some back ground. I met this person about 2 years ago in the game site pogo. We seemed to hit it off. We exchanged msn messenger and talked often, she even started blogging. Now nobody is without problems, we all have them, hell I have lots of them. I thought we were there for each other and talked to each other about everything.

A few things bugged me though, I tried to over look them but they bugged me.
1. She would constantly complain about her children. Once or twice is okay, even funny, but it was constant. Wanting them to go back to school and leave her alone, wanting to strangle them, just wanting them to not bug her at all. I tried to blow it off, but she would put it on her blog, and on her MSN bar. Then she would try to justify it about how much she loved them. It was just to much, it said volumes about her (my uncle always said when people say nasty things it says more about them then who they are talking about.) In most cases that is true.

2. She did the same thing about her husband, always saying she was gonna kill him and hide the body, again once or twice funny, every single day, not so much.

3. We would be in game rooms chatting and I would be saying the same things as the rest of the room (pertaining to our progress in the room) And she would always call me a bragger. That used to tick me off, cuz my mother taught us that was a pretty bad thing to be. I was only doing what everyone including her was, and I thought we were all teasing. When I would tell her such, she would tell me I was bragging more than anyone. Whatever, I stopped talking in the rooms.

4. One time I told her something that bugged me about what a couple people did in the games we played. Her response was that I was more competitive than any man she met (now she told me this when I had just lost multiple games for her to get a badge, lost on purpose) Then she goes, that's one of your biggest faults, but I love ya anyway.

5. This was the biggest one. I would message her and it would take sometimes 5 or 10 minutes for her to answer. She would say sorry she was off doing this or that, well no biggie, we all have lives outside of the computer. But if I took more than 10 seconds or so to answer, I would get a "fine you want to be alone I'll leave you alone" and she would sign out of messenger.

Well last week was the last straw I guess.

Her and I had talked for a couple hours the night before, laughing and joking and having a good time with a bunch of other people in a game room.

The next morning, I signed on to MSN saw her online and I say Morning

She says NO it's NOT but whatever
(now she's three hours ahead of me, so I hurried and did the counting, nope still 11 there) I say "oh I thought it was only 11 there"

She says, "Whatever, I meant it wasn't a good morning." (so in the joking way we usually do) I say "OH well I said morning, not that it was good hahahaha"

She says, "LISTEN it isn't a good day, I'm bitchy!! SORRY"
so before I step into it any further (because sometimes when she has had a bad day and I try to help she tells me to butt out) I say "Would you rather be left alone then hun?" (I thought that was nice, asking first, my next words were gonna be to ask her if I could help and what was wrong.) She then says. "Listen!! I said Sorry, but do WHATEVER you want." and she signed out of msn as soon as she sent that message.

My jaw dropped, I was sorta ticked off she treated me that way. First of all how could I tell how bad a day she was having through a fricken messenger if she wasn't talking, and 2nd how dare you treat a friend that way, when they were being nice. And thinking of all the other times she had just signed out on me, and thinking of how rude that was. I guess I had had enough.

I messaged her in the pogo mail. I had said. That was dam rude. I understand your having a bad day, but it's not my fault, and I didn't realize how bad, but that is rude behavior to not give me a chance to say anything. I also said, how I didn't appreciate being treated that way, that I wouldn't put up with it from other people, so I wouldn't put up with it from her who is supposed to be my friend, and that I did NOT deserve to be treated that way. I also said that I didn't' say anything wrong, I was trying to be nice asking her something so I wasn't going to apologize for trying to be nice.

I get a message back, that was short and sweet.

It said, You can act all perfect if you want, I know better, cuz you ARE NOT PERFECT. and that she had had the past 24 hours from hell (funny we were laughing and joking 8 hours previous) and that I didn't even ask her if she was okay (first I didn't know things were wrong, I got shut out to fast and how can I ask someone that signs out and won't give me the chance) Then she said that since I was so perfect and couldn't be a friend to check on her, she was deleting me out of everything, blog, messenger, game site, e-mail, everything, and that I would never hear from her again.

I tried sending her a couple other messages, and it just got worse and worse from her. Scary worse. Can anyone say Bi-Polar and needs major meds??? Good god.

I'm not perfect, I have never tried to be, hell I tell people up front I have lots of faults. But I also don't point out other peoples faults to their face like she was constantly doing to me. Even some that I didn't think I had, and neither does anyone else, cuz I asked.

I totally hate that when someone says something she doesn't like, that she deletes them. And she also says horrid thing to them, on their blogs alot. I know for a fact that she has done it to Special K and to Miranda and Susan, and to Dorky Dad who I used to read, and she told me she did it to a few others.

I guess what upsets me most, is that I invested two years in what I thought was a "real" friendship that could surpass time and trials, and the first thing I don't bow at her feet and agree with her with, she deletes me out of everything. I'm most upset that I invested time in something that wasn't a true friendship.

Anyhow that is my rant, non of you had to stick with it. A lot of you know I'm a fierce loving friend, and will stick up for ya through tons of stuff. I just hope I get alot of that respect back, but let me tell ya, I'm gonna be on the look out for Bi-Polar maniacs not taking meds. hahahaha

Have a good Tuesday all!!! We are on spring break so having fun so far.